Faiza - Me and my Memories of You!
Monday, April 4, 2011
TE AMO -Song for You ...... IMUAL
Friday, April 1, 2011
फिर एक बार ----- FAIZA
फिर एक बार मुझे जीने की सजा दो
फिर एक बार मुझे तुम अपना बना लो........
कुच्छ तो रास्ता होगा
तुमको तो पता होगा
बड़ी मुश्किल हो गयी है
मेरी कोई चीज़ खो गयी है
नींद कहीं चली गयी है
आँखों से दूर हो गयी है
इसे फिर से बुला लो
फिर एक बार मुझे जीने की सजा दो......
चाँद को देखके अश्क बहते हैं
लेकिन ये होंठ मुस्कुराते रहते हैं
उस चाँद से अपना अक्स हटा दो
फिर एक बार मुझे जीने की सजा दो......
हर दिन तुम्हारी याद लेके आता है
तुम्हे छोडके मेरे पास जाता है
बस इन यादों को इस दिल से मिटा
फिर एक बार मुझे जीने की सजा दो......
पूरे शहर में कोई अपना नहीं है
जागती आँखों में कोई सपना नहीं है
मौत से गहरी ख़ामोशी है...जगा दो
फिर एक बार मुझे जीने की सजा दो......
ज़ेहन की दीवारों पे कोई शक्ल सी उभरती है
रात की स्याही में रोशिनी सी उभरती है
तुम नहीं तो कौन है ये बता दो
फिर एक बार मुझे जीने की सजा दो......
आँखें बंद करते ही आ जाते हो
मेरे ज़ेहन-ओ- गुमाँ पे छा जाते हो
अब ये आँखें न खुले इन्हें सुला दो
फिर एक बार मुझे जीने की सजा दो......
उस दिन जब तुमने मेरी मांग भरी थी
क्या क़यामत क्या आसूदा घडी थी
हमें इस सफर की मंजिल तो दिखा दो
फिर एक बार मुझे जीने की सजा दो......
मैं परिवाश थी तुम्हारे आगोश में
ज़िन्दगी खियाबां थी फूलों से भरी थी
इस इबादत का न ऐसा सिला दो
फिर एक बार मुझे जीने की सजा दो......
बस येही चाहत है के जब अज़ल से मिलूं
तुम्हारी बाहें हों और आखरी सांस में लूँ
ज़िन्दगी मेरे साथ हों और मौत से मिला दो......
फिर एक बार मुझे जीने की सजा दो......
फिर एक बार मुझे जीने की सजा दो
फिर एक बार मुझे तुम अपना बना लो........!
فاعزاه
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
feeling uneasy!
Have an uneasy feeling since the past 3-4 days, hope you are well.....please take care of urself!
miss you soooo much! I dunno y this happens, Im travelling from work or to work, thinking of u, switch on the radio, n there is a song playing that reminds me of u....those very songs that we shared ...so long ago!
then I get some calls (official) n they r from your native place....only coinci..... like we called these things...right!
never mind all that....all im worried is about u...god knows what this feeling is, but it aint good!
Take care!
miss you soooo much! I dunno y this happens, Im travelling from work or to work, thinking of u, switch on the radio, n there is a song playing that reminds me of u....those very songs that we shared ...so long ago!
then I get some calls (official) n they r from your native place....only coinci..... like we called these things...right!
never mind all that....all im worried is about u...god knows what this feeling is, but it aint good!
Take care!
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Holi-day!!
I jerk myself back to reality, there I am back at staring the moon again.
A hectic week it was, with clients visiting, running about doing some stuff for Japan earthquake relief, having my birthday....not celebrating...due to many reasons, client meetings, Japan disaster, myself being in no mood to celebrate..well ..when i think of it....we never celebrated my birthday together..... do u remember celebrating? no i guess. Life is so short ..... n i would really love to celebrate just one birthday with you only to remember for the rest of my life...enough to make all my birthdays worth living for :)
I know I m just getting way out of my league.
Anyways, Happy Holi, hope you had a lovely time with your family. How is sweet Ayu? she is lucky to have an uncle like you..... Take care of her.
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Coincidences again .....P.S. I Love You!
With the Valentine fever, all the movie channels showed romantic movies all of Feb, one fine evening, I remember its your Dad's bday that day, was wondering what you would be doing.... whether you have found a gal of your dreams or not....one fine day, I switch on the TV, a movie with Gerard Butler is on...although I never thought he looks like you, but this particular movie and more particularlily this scene from P.S. I Love You...... when they meet for the first time. His smile, the way he talked, was exactly like you.... I almost forgot to breathe ...while I watched the scene. Then I thot of posting that particular scene, and while I searched, I came across this video, (its a coincidence, that a moment ago I was reading a random mail from you which you had written while you were listenining to If Tomorrow Never Comes.....) ....Just a sweet coincidence! Enjoy!!
Everytime that movie is on, I just watch that particular scene ::)
Everytime that movie is on, I just watch that particular scene ::)
Dont close your doors on me
Blogging after a really long time, I know the frequency of my posts have reduced. Its intentional, since I understood that you read my posts, I feel I shouldn’t write things that are gonna make it difficult for u to move on..or make u feel hurt and guilty. Also, things at work have really picked up pace and I hardly get any time to write about US. Although hardly a day or a night passes by when I don’t miss you or imagine you with me. I know it’s foolish, after all these years, I should learn to move on. I should learn to stop missing you.
I think I am weird, not trying to move on, not understanding that there is life ahead and outside this small world of your memories. I understand a lot of things and I know that I wouldn’t be hard if I put my mind to it. It wouldn’t be hard to just stop thinking of you, to stop missing your touch, your face, your fragrance. The fact is I don’t wanna move on, and as long as me being here doesn’t hurt you or anyone, I am gonna stay here. I know what you are thinking now……”God this one is hard to lose! What was my fault to have met her! Heheheeh!”
I hear you are goin thru a bad phase in life…. Don’t u think it is a coincidence, that out of so many months and years, we got in touch at this time, I was restless and unhappy for no reason, I was thinking something is not right, and although I had promised myself not to contact you ever again, I wanted to know that you are ok. But you are not, and I wish you wouldn’t close yourself to your loved ones when you are goin thru a bad time. It is what you always did, and I waited till you were ok to talk and tell me what is going on. Trust me baby, if you close yourself to your near ones in tough times, you will feel worse. We are there not for good times only, more for the bad phases in life. So if not me, just bring your family and close friends together in this tough time and see how things seem easy suddenly.
I wish I can be there to hear your troubles to make it easier for you to face them, but you don’t want me. So all I will do is say a quiet prayer for you every day. You have no idea how strong you are, you have no idea as to what you can make happen, you are the best guy in the world. All you have to do is just sit quiet for a while and think real hard and that genius mind of yours will get you all the solutions you need.
Just don’t panic and never say you can’t take it anymore! I am with you always. Just don’t close your doors on me!
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
what is life!
Life is made up of small moments, very tiny miniscule milliseconds....n these are the moments that are either good or bad that make our life happy or sad....just like the drops of water that fill a vessel, if a few drops are blue all the water would look blue. If they are red, the water is red…. So is our life, if the happy moments (seconds) are more, our entire life looks happy and its d opposite when the number of sad n angry moments surpass happy moments.
Life is what we make of it…a person can be happy or sad by himself, we think we need others to give us happiness or hurt….but its not true. I feel we bring it on ourselves without much help of others, they are there to make it easier or harder…..
It is up to us to be happy with ourselves, sometimes we depend too much on people around us to provide us with the happiness or hurt to feel something, guys we shouldn’t do that!
Just get up in the morning, look at your reflection and say, hey sweetie! I love you! …. And the rest of the day will be good! From last week, I have decded to do 2 things everyday. ONE: Give myself some much needed appreciation and love. TWO: Do at least one selfless act towards a stranger. i.e make someone smile for no reason without expecting anything in return.
That is how my days are going and it feels good. I don’t need anyone to tell me I am good, or to bring me down.
This is life! MY LIFE!
